"What’s good about getting paid zero dollars for your side hustle/passion project/projections is that it will always keep you primed: ready to stand on your invisible podium that no one even notices to tell you that this is GOOD. It may not be textbook GOOD. Like, it may not be something you can say is GOOD or BAD. But it’s SOMETHING. And building SOMETHING is GOOD. Building SOMETHING allows you to look straight up into the cornflower blue sky and say Well, I woke up today and put my two feet on the ground."
“Instead of having to chew this shit up and swish it back and forth in my mouth to make it easier to swallow I can now break it with my teeth and spit it back out.” <- I love every word of this line and the visceral picture it creates. I feel lighter after reading this piece, thank you for reminding me that life is zero dollars!!
Guilty - I’ve called you raw and found that really inspiring. I stand by that - it’s brave to be real bc so few are. I want to do more of it and revel in my neuroses but people like my Aunt Barb and my boss (ugh) are reading it and everyone (gulp) in my local community who reads the paper since I’m sorta syndicated with this. How to balance honesty with saving face with the ex husband who lives 2 blocks down etc. anyway yes to all of this - and real deep rough Convos I do have on my porch with lady friends and do my best to do here. Onwards!
"What’s good about getting paid zero dollars for your side hustle/passion project/projections is that it will always keep you primed: ready to stand on your invisible podium that no one even notices to tell you that this is GOOD. It may not be textbook GOOD. Like, it may not be something you can say is GOOD or BAD. But it’s SOMETHING. And building SOMETHING is GOOD. Building SOMETHING allows you to look straight up into the cornflower blue sky and say Well, I woke up today and put my two feet on the ground."
This made me cry, thank you.
Soooooo good
“Instead of having to chew this shit up and swish it back and forth in my mouth to make it easier to swallow I can now break it with my teeth and spit it back out.” <- I love every word of this line and the visceral picture it creates. I feel lighter after reading this piece, thank you for reminding me that life is zero dollars!!
Guilty - I’ve called you raw and found that really inspiring. I stand by that - it’s brave to be real bc so few are. I want to do more of it and revel in my neuroses but people like my Aunt Barb and my boss (ugh) are reading it and everyone (gulp) in my local community who reads the paper since I’m sorta syndicated with this. How to balance honesty with saving face with the ex husband who lives 2 blocks down etc. anyway yes to all of this - and real deep rough Convos I do have on my porch with lady friends and do my best to do here. Onwards!
Light that bitch up!!!
I love your writing so fucking much and I love your thoughts, too.